18 months ago, I would never imagine that I’d be ready to let
folks into such an intimate part of my life. However, as I move into 2010, I realize how important it is to share with hopes of encouraging others to share and heal as well.
So far, I’ve had several messages from those of you who’ve read the first post. Now, I encourage you to freely post your comments to the blog. All you have to do is give your first name and email address, but your email address will be kept private so again, please comment.
I’m so glad, so many of you, think this blog is definitely necessary for the Body of Christ. This is really about educating, enlightening and empowering.
As I sat here a few days ago pondering how to launch this blog, I did so with mixed emotions, realizing Just 14 months ago, after 19 years of friendship & “couple-hood” and 14 years of marriage, mine to my college sweetheart, whom I still love and care for very deeply, was dissolved.
Just 4 months before that back in May 2008, I received the shock of my life! Life as I knew it was interrupted by REALITY. The reality of my situation was unsettling. After 19 years of friendship and 14 years of marriage, my college sweetheart decided his life was no longer compatible with me or our family of four.
Though plans were moving forward every day to position the family closer to the new job he’d accepted as Head Golf Professional at an award winning internationally known resort, all of a sudden I had a rude reality check.
His plans, clearly didn’t include the lifestyle we had built or honored, nor did he have plans to try to resolve any unanswered questions or concerns. Our faith and our family were no longer a priority to him. Life as I knew it, was over. All of a sudden, at one moment I was up and at the next I was down.
All of a sudden, I was just like everyone else. I was in despair, pondering life as another fatal family statistic when The Source of my hope, began to give me clear kingdom strategies for achieving success in the midst of uncensored pain.
Now, I began to wrestle with hope.
In the midst of being surrounded by a seemingly hopeless generation, I had to be careful not to fall into the hole of hopelessness or the depths of depression. I had to figure out a way to OVERCOME, knowing that in the midst of my pain, in the midst of my challenges, in the midst of my suffering, in the midst of my temptation, my guidebook for life, Bible is clear, GOD WILL ALWAYS PROVIDE A WAY OF ESCAPE!
So with that, I had to believe God would indeed give me a way out! I had to believe in hope that God would give me GRACE to endure hardness like a good soldier and in the midst of enduring hardship, that He would position me for purpose and set me up for success.
I mean afterall, I wasn’t an “accidental Christian” I was one who pursued my faith on purpose.
I was an ordained minister of the Gospel, along with my then husband of 14 years and I needed to know that my faith, could and would carry me through this trauma. Along the way, through this unexpected journey, I was often reminded of one of my favorite scriptures: Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end”
Now the questions that were before me were riveting the core of my being:
- Are God’s Plans for me the same, now that I am a single mom?
- Is that expected end, the same?
- Did I really believe, this Gospel I pursued, preached and proclaimed?
- Did I really believe that in the midst of MY pain, God was positioning for my ultimate purpose?
- Was God REALLY calling me to Stand In Faith for restoration & reconciliation?